Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Longing For Different Time Periods

    Wouldn't it be cool to live in different time periods?  Not that there is anything wrong with now.  Well actually there is quite a bit wrong with now, but it's worth accepting that.  However, I think we all have that longing to live in the past, or way back in time in periods such as medieval times.  I am performing a recital of American songs with pianist Martin Neron on February 26 at Christ and St. Stephens in Manhattan, and one of the main themes in the recital is this theme of longing for time periods other than the present.
  There's a poem called "Miniver Cheevy" by Edwin Arlington Robinson which is set to music by John Duke which deals with this very subject of wanting to live in different time period other than the present.  The poem is a narration about a guy longing for the past, especially the  Middle Ages.  He wants to be a knight, war hero and the like, yet he is a homeless drunkard in his present circumstances.
    John Duke set this narration in variation form musically, and it is a brilliant setting.  In variation form musical material is repeated between each movement , but it is altered in rhythm, pitch, harmony etc...  In the poem Mr. Cheevy is lamenting the fact that he is living in this time period, and also getting excited about living in different time periods.  For example Miniver loves the Medici and gets really pumped up about that.  However, he curses the common place and hates khaki suits.  It says all this in the poem which I will post below.  I am discussing this because I am pointing out how John Duke sets the poem.  Mr. Duke also wrote an epilogue of Miniver Cheevy letting out drunken sighs which is not in the original poem.
     Check out the poem, and listen to the song.  Donald Gramm has an excellent recordings of the song both live and in the studio.  Mr. Duke himself was in the audience during the live performance.  Here's the poem.




Miniver Cheevy, child of scorn,
   Grew lean while he assailed the seasons;
He wept that he was ever born,
   And he had reasons.

Miniver loved the days of old
   When swords were bright and steeds were prancing;
The vision of a warrior bold
   Would set him dancing.

Miniver sighed for what was not,
   And dreamed, and rested from his labors;
He dreamed of Thebes and Camelot,
   And Priam’s neighbors.

Miniver mourned the ripe renown
   That made so many a name so fragrant;
He mourned Romance, now on the town,
   And Art, a vagrant.

Miniver loved the Medici,
   Albeit he had never seen one;
He would have sinned incessantly
   Could he have been one.

Miniver cursed the commonplace
   And eyed a khaki suit with loathing;
He missed the mediƦval grace
   Of iron clothing.

Miniver scorned the gold he sought,
   But sore annoyed was he without it;
Miniver thought, and thought, and thought,
   And thought about it.

Miniver Cheevy, born too late,
   Scratched his head and kept on thinking;
Miniver coughed, and called it fate,
   And kept on drinking.

Monday, January 11, 2016

There's Light At The End Of The Tunnel

This is a poem I wrote recently.  If you are going through tough times they will pass.

We all have tough times
We can't escape that
Life on life's terms
But the sun always shines

There's light at the end of the tunnel.
There's light at the end of the tunnel

Friends come and go
We lose the ones we love
Things don't go our way
But the sun always shines

There's light at the end of the tunnel
There's light at the end of the tunnel

It seems like we're down and out
We quickly lose hope
We fall into despair
But the sun always shines

There's light at the end of the tunnel
There's light at the end of the tunnel

We all have to feel
Feelings can hurt
There's no escape from that
But the sun always shines

There's light at the end of the tunnel
There's a light at the end of the tunnel

I hope this message helps
Things will look up again
Have faith in yourself
The sun always shines

There's light at the end of the tunnel
There's light at the end of the tunnel

Friday, January 8, 2016

Love Always Beats Hate

This morning kind of sucked with the caffeine withdrawal.  Like I said, I know people will think I'm nuts for quitting caffeine, but I quit for good reasons. I am writing to motivate myself to keep at it, because this morning I nearly faltered.  I know that the benefits will be good as time goes a long.  Just need to hang in there and give it time.  If you are trying to break a habit, keep at it because you will benefit in the end.  Since you only live once, why not live in the best way you can?
  Not much went on today for me.  Honestly this no caffeine thing has been knocking me out since I am new to it for the tenth time.  I've quit caffeine more times than I can count, so hopefully this will be the last time.  Enough about that.  
     I want to mention something that a friend I sing with said always choose love in his Facebook status.  That is absolutely right.  Simply because choosing anger and hate never works.  If you're angry at someone and you don't tell them that's resentment.  You're just carrying shit around and it's hurting you, not them.  What's the point of that?  It's incredibly toxic and will make you seriously miserable.  I have resented people who are not worth one second of my time.  The only way to free yourself of such people is to love them.  You don't have to like them, because that is a different thing.  However, ultimately, we are all human beings who have a right to live our lives freely, and we all deserve to be loved.

Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses.

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Thursday, January 7, 2016

Life is Good

I'm on a train going in slow motion, so I figured I would write something. This train makes so many stops, I'm not sure if civilization is beginning or ending.  Although as I wrote that we started to move, so I won't push my luck.
  Today was a good day.  As the year begins I am feeling more and more at peace.  I went to a great opera with a fantastic friend last night, and went to a fun party today graciously hosted by Salvatore Diana and Daniel Brondel on the upper west side.  What a view from their apartment. That view represents all of life's possibilities.  I looked out the window and could see for miles.  Of course we were inside this time instead of outside like last June.  We would be freezing our nuts off otherwise.  This weather is perfect if you're a fucking moose or something.  If you're a furry animal then it's a fucking festival.  A little comedy for a cold night.
    I had no ending to that last part, so I figured I would move on to the next part.  I enter this year feeling a bit uncertain about what the next chapter is in my life.  I am sure a lot of people feel the same way.  That being said, things have a way of working themselves out.  I'm not sure how, but they do.  When in doubt listen to your heart and answers will come.  Do not let people dominate you or micromanage you.  There are always choices and the best choice is listening to what's inside.  I find that always works best for me.  If something feels right there's a decent chance it is right.  If it feels wrong, boy is it wrong.  I am talking about going with your heart here, not your head.  I always feel a million times better when I do the right thing.
     I'm writing today and updating this.  The first part is from the other night.  I have decided to quit caffeine for hopefully the last time.   I feel like a zombie right now, but I know this is a good decision for my physical and mental health.  It's always good to take care of yourself.  My head is clearer when I am free of everything that negatively effects my mood.  I eat better and also am ultimately a better colleague and friend.  It is also easier to make life decisions with a clear mind.  Right now my mind feels soupy and I feel sleepy, but that will improve for sure.  It's important to get toxic things or people out of your life.  Caffeine was toxic, so it's gone.  I know you all make think I'm nuts for doing this.  Different things effect people different ways.  Caffeine messes with my blood sugar and makes me hopped up.  It also dries my throat out, so for me, it's a toxic substance.  I hope all of you are having a great year so far.

Monday, January 4, 2016

Pearl Fishers

I just wanted to write a brief entry about an opera I just saw at the Met.  This is not a review, since I am not a reviewer.  I just mainly wanted to say that it was a really enjoyable show which I highly recommend people listen to on the radio this Saturday afternoon. It's called The Pearl Fishers and it's by Georges Bizet who is best known for his last opera "Carmen."
    Bizet was a genius who only lived until the age of 36.  Bizet was an exceptional orchestrator, and that is very evident in this opera.  Just listen to the strings in the duet "Au fond du temple saint."  There is also wonderful writing for the flute in this duet which is also a trademark in "Carmen."  Matthew Polenzani and Mariusz Kwiecien did an outstanding job with this duet tonight.  The voices blended very well on the unison E flats in particular.  Diana Damrau not only sang beautifully, but was outstanding as far as dynamic range and presence on stage.
     This show had a lot of highlights, and was one of the best things I've seen recently. Gianandrea Noseda brought the best out of all the performers.  I remember watching him conduct Tosca at the Verbier festival and being in complete awe of him.  The Met orchestra sounded fantastic tonight under his leadership.  I would definitely check this show out if you can.  It's worth going, plus it's not too long.  Highly recommend.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

The Little Things

I want to post more in 2016, so why not start now?  It's really important to not let things get to you.  I say that to you mainly referring to myself, but also to those who might read this.  The little things in life can really get to me.  Little irritations like traffic.  Last Wed someone honked at me and I flipped my lid.  The thing is that angry outbursts over little things can kill you.  Since I felt it in my chest afterwards I can attest to that.   Aside from the little things it's really important to not be too hard on ourselves.  I reached the point yesterday where I was having palpitations, joint pain and stiffness and aches in various joints.  Back in 2009 I was diagnosed with Lyme disease.  I took the antibiotic, and that basically solved it.  However, I do have it chronically at times.  Most days are pretty good.  However when the temperature or barometer pressure drop and I stress myself out it flares up in the form of fatigue, body aches, and stiffness.  Notice how I said stress myself out.  Other people or situations only stress me out when I choose to let them.  We actually have choices with how we take things.  Do not let the little things get to you, and don't take yourself to seriously.  Just try your best to stay calm and you will have good emotional sobriety.  This totally goes for me.  That's why I am writing this right now.
 
     There is another aspect of the concept of little things which is enjoying the little things.  For example, take a look at the moon and how beautiful it looks.  Of course that is a big thing which we view as little.  If we are kind to people during the day it may seem little, but it is much bigger than we think.  If I may paraphrase a quote I saw recently, the quote referred to the little things becoming big things as life goes on.  My point is don't be so wrapped up in all the millions of things you have to do, the minor annoyances and all the little things that happen throughout the day.  You'll miss those little things like a beautiful sunset and not experience life.  The sun is of course absolutely huge from a literal sense, but people often don't realize it's significance.  If it weren't here, we wouldn't be here.  Anyway, if you are reading this, thank you for helping me get over my writers block.  Stay tuned for more.
   

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

New Years

I like to write blog posts around the holidays and end of the year.  If you're reading this I wish you a great holiday and healthy and happy start to the new year.
  There are many amazing people in the world who do absolutely amazing things.  For example, brain surgeons, heart surgeons, humanitarians, EMTs, nurses, policemen, firemen, etc... Think of how many lives these people save on a daily basis, and it will blow your mind.  I'd personally like to thank these kind of people for their dedication and bravery.  There are many professions that I left out and types of people I left out, and that is why I wrote etc...
   I'm writing all that to express gratitude for the goodness in the world that is often overlooked in the news and what not.  I also believe that if we focus more on the goodness in the world, there could be no violence.  Less violence isn't good enough.  No violence is good enough.  Love, kindness, caring about others, and being in harmony with one another is good enough.  Violence such as harming other people and animals is something I will never get.  There was a shit load of violence in 2015, and I don't understand why.  Perhaps I am not supposed to understand why.  I'm not sure what else to say about that. Shooting after shooting and constant hostility.  I don't get it.
    The real fact is that violence isn't going to decrease.  I wish that weren't true, but the evidence is overwhelming that it keeps getting worse.  Shootings and more shootings, bullying in person and on the internet.  Often times teachers bully the students in schools.  Don't even get me started with that.  Why teach then??  I had a teacher growing up who called a student a loser and a cheater.  Again, why teach then?  Anyway, I shifted in the negative a bit here.  I want to go back to loving, and kindness.
   If you search the internet for people being kind, tons of a awesome things come up.  Aaron's last wish is one of them.  Aaron committed suicide and wrote in his will that he wanted his family to go to restaurants all over the country and give waiters or waitresses awesome tips.  That is an amazing act of kindness.  This is just one example.  Another example which really touched me was one of my students helping out another student.  Both students had solos in a choir concert.  The other kid was having trouble has my student tried to help him.  Very moving for sure.
   I am writing all this because it would he nice to see some of the good things in the world focused on more often.  Most news is about people doing horrible things to one another.  People who save lives are getting recognized more, but it is still not enough.  Many people do brave and heroic deeds which get overlooked every day.  Despite the fact that violence is increasing more and more, I'm still staying optimistic because there are so many beautiful acts of love and kindness which occur to counteract the acts of violence.  Hopefully love will win and be the antidote to violence.  In a lot of cases you'll already see it happening.
  As far as New Years Resolutions,  I set goals which are realistic, and ones which I work on one day at a time.  I want to eat well, lose weight, really work on my craft, grow spiritually and just be the best person I can be.  Those are a few generals goals I have which are doable.  I'm hoping to also get off caffeine and stay off.  Life is more chill without it and my head is more clear.  Wish me luck with that one.  Now, if I said I was going to enter the mister universe contest or be able to fit in a leotard that would be bullshit goals.  You don't want to see me in a leotard believe me.  If you find yourself slipping on your resolutions just live in day tight compartments.  Just get back on track.  I hope everyone has a fantastic 2016.